Wonderland or Not

Strange things hap­pen, things good on the sur­face but disconcerting.

My parents annoy me. I am not sure why, but they are not get­ting a divorce and have been wor­king on a recon­ci­lia­tion for some time. I am not sure what is going on exactly, but they told me at Christ­mas. I think that they went to coun­se­ling or something. My brother appea­red to know, but as usual Alice in Won­der­land is left in the dark as she is a deli­cate flo­wer that needs to be kept from these things.

I am sure their inten­tions were good, they pro­bably didn’t want to get my hopes up. I mean after all those years of marriage, to let something as stu­pid as an affair end it, well doesn’t seem right does it? (drip­ping with sar­casm here)

It has occu­rred to me pos­sibly they got back together to unite their efforts to get me to see the light and to stop seeing The Pro­fes­sor as my brother calls him. They somehow felt that my seeing some guy that was eight years older, (ok ele­ven), is indi­ca­tive of a rebe­llion against the recent break up of their marriage. I’m a little past the rebe­llion stage.

What, do they think that I am somehow less safe with him than I am in the dorms of NYU. If they only knew. At least I can breath in the hall­ways of his place without fear of inha­ling God knows what.

Taking a break from all men right now. Wallo­wing a little in the worst part of the Holi­day, Mis­sing my grand­mother. This is the first Christ­mas without her, and that is hard. She was not that old and was so lively and so much a part if my life’
Peo­ple are sad when peo­ple die because they are sel­fish and I am sel­fish. I want her back. I miss her.

I am going on vaca­tion to Jack­son Hole, and then to Utah, to snow­board. I mis­sed last year due to a rib injury, so I am loo­king for­ward to it. It was a gift from my parents… this too I think in an effort to keep me out of the city. It wor­ked as I can’t give up Jack­son Hole and Snow­bird. They don’t know they didn’t really need to lure me away from anything as there is nothing that evil wai­ting there. My best friend is going with me. My brother is going as well, as are my parents. I can’t wait to party NYE in Jack­son Hole, those snowboarder’s and skiers are the best peo­ple to party with. There is so much evil out there in Jack­son Hole if my parents only knew. ;)

I hear we can even get the New York Times at the place we are sta­ying as well as .….….……the Internet.

Then to Utah. God they know not what they do. They are afraid of NY and of their daugh­ter dating a twenty-eight year old( (ok thirty) but willingly send her to the land of “men with many wives”. The land of OLD MEN WITH MANY YOUNG WIVES.

Be Merry. don’t make any stu­pid New Years reso­lu­tions, and do what makes you happy within the boun­da­ries of self res­pect and res­pect for others. As sub­jec­tive as that is.

Peace